death and thinking...

death...makes ya think , don't it ???

death...and humour...

...some ways of dying are funnier than others...

...sleep when you are dead...

...those who walk in religion...will kill you when you die...

death , for sure...

...death...there is a history propelling it...

...death is a turd...

...death is  a projected turd...

...true story...

...the doctor told me i was going go die...and from there...the day got progressively worse...

...the monster...

a monster grabbed my hand in the middle of the night...i ripped his arm off and threw it across the room .

...bird in hand...

...dying...when your bird finally leaves your hand...

...it happened...

...it happened...just ' cause...

...dying...

...dying...natures way of tickling your balls ,

...dying...

...that is...getting your toes wet...

dying...it is...

...dying...it is not just for penguins anymore...

...first thought...

when i found out i was dying...my first thought was...''i wonder how people will react ??? ''

late september...2018

the glowing beetle was about  4 inches tall...and danced like john travolta .

stars die...

stars die...and then fuck around the galaxy ...how about you ???

...hate about dying...

what i hate most about dying...people telling me i am not dying .

...dying...

dying...lives ???

...dying...perspective...

...dying...it is all perspective .

losing shit...

most people and rockets burn fast...then lose all their shit .

death , hockey cards , whatever...

...you decide if you want to give up...GOD decides when .

dd dd dying...

dying...brought to you by fuck allee duck duck...

non - existence...

non - existence...you will bloom like a flower .

nice tie...

when it comes time for your doctor to tell you you are dying...say something profound...like... ''nice tie''.

...dying part 2...

...if you are an idiot...dying will really suck...

dying...part one...

people are idiots...live with it...

death...

...death...cures all sexual ambiguity .

death...dying and...

...death...dying and a few more inches...

dying...

...dying...you will not forget how to do it .

dying...first step...

ripping out your heart and stopping on it...is a good start .

dying...and plans...

dying...do not let it screw up family plans .

...life...

life...sometimes it exits through your ass .

...hallucinations...

...so i grabbed this light green snake...and  cut off its head...

...death , where is thy sting ???

'' oh death , where is thy sting ??? ''

TRY LOOKING IN THE FUCKING COFFIN !!!

death and peace...

why do kids die with more peace ??? because they live with more peace !!!

death will hold you...

death will hold you...but who will hold your penis  ???

shit slinger...

before it goes to shit...get yourself a shit slinger .

dying first...

sometimes you can choose what part of you dies first...sometimes not .

the erection of the dead...

you know the dead...by their erection .

l . g . s .

i like the light green snake...he is so...long .

john prine...

...besides jesus...there has never been a holier person than john prine .

...demons...

once in a while , the little fuckers would physically appear and crawl up my bed .
...to put it simply...i would grab the little prick and fire him against the wall .
...got the impression...he didn't like it .

...oh , my lizard...

...lizard 0 reptile...jumped at my face at four in the morning .

...i punched him in the nose .

..spirit...

...i felt my spirit leaving my body...it felt...fun .

...peaceful , easy feeling...

the fact of the matter is that , all things being equal...my death will be nothing more and nothing less than a PEACEFUL , EASY FEELING .

...all designed by GOD HIMSELF .

s .i .

....so my friend steve is sitting front row centre...smiling and all...and what is so weird about all this ??? he is '' dead '' , that is all .

nature screams...

skinny dipping...and there to our left was a snapping turtle...but it was not...it was nature yelling to us...LOOK OUT , FUCK HEAD .

...nature screams all kinds of shit .

dying some more...

what is really fucked up is when you tell people you are dying...they neurotically begin talking about themselves .

louie bodies...

...maybe some diseases are built upon shitty attitudes .

forever , my child...

the near i can figure out...there are hundreds...maybe billions and billions of dimensions running all around the fucking place...

...everything goes on forever .

...shit leaves a trail...

we think our knowledge complete...which opens the doors for all kind of shit .

hallucinations...

...what are they ??? biological ??? spiritual ??? both ??? something else ???

...the scar...

...so my hallucination crawled up my arm and bit me...two weeks later...the scar is still there .

another hallucination...

...i possess a nine inch plastic godzilla...and how i love to watch him walk across my dining table at four in the morning .

green snake...

one of my favourite hallucinations...a green snake...and i could feel it when i touched it...it was really fucked up .

...one more time...

before you die...fiddle with your nuts one more time .

die ,baby...die

...egomaniacs make shitty dead people...

...life is fragile...

...i pounded three street kids shitless when i was 15...they were beating up the alderman's  child...

...and how does this tie into our subject ??? the shit actually came out of the big ones nose...and ruined my shoes...

...life is fragile .

revelation...

after "the news "...i almost immediately had this revelation...a small revelation...not much to brag about , actually...non-the less...here it is...almost here now...ready...

i possess...nothing ...nope , not a fucking thing...and every thing i hold onto...is an illusion...on some days...maybe even less...hard to say .

put down...

when i get '' put down ''...killed...i want to dress up like a beaver...and the doctor...like elmer fudd...and he will plug me...right between my fucking eyes .

...donation...

...before you die...take a good look up your ass...see if there is anything you should donate .

death ??? death !!!

...death...fuck...

beetles vs beatles...

last night...there was a beetle upon my arm...i told it it did not exist...it disappeared .

...the bees...

one of my favourite hallucination...a funnel of glowing bees...spinning out of the window...and into eternity .

...miracles...

most miracles go unnoticed .

...perception...

...one of the first signs something was fucked up...vision dark along the sides .

weird...

what is really weird is when you have a hallucination in a haunted house...if you ever see a ghost and a hallucination at the same time...you must wonder...'' what else is out there ??? " . 

lines...and pulling...

the weird thing about my first two hallucinations  was that they were exactly the same thing...squiggly  fucking lines on a toilet bowl...i mean...who wants to be killed by squiggly  , little lines ???

the universe was pulling in various directions .

...shithouse...

it all started with two little lost , insignificant cells...in the boiling shithouse of planet earth...NEXT scene...early in the morning...four and a half years ago...i stick my face in the toilet bowl...my first hallucination...really fucked up it was...i scratch my bum and go back to sleep .

...start again...

i discontinued this blog because i had nothing left to say...now that i have been informed by the medical profession that I AM DYING...( like a road kill lost in hyper- space...)...i feel that i got a shit load to say .

...follow me , my little nest of siberian grasshoppers...to the land of both utopia...and shit on a stick...let us peek inside and lick all the bodily fluids like a penguin a killer whale's penis .

it is fuckaly - duckaly - do - time .